They say that the body and the spirit are connected. If this is true, then when is it reasonable to say that one is a reflection of the other? For example, four years ago I was at my heaviest I have ever been. 215 pounds. Granted, I do wear my weight fairly well, and people tell me that I have a large enough frame to pull it off. But I felt sluggish and fat all the time. I had no energy to speak of. Nothing was particularly interesting. At the same time in my life, I was very bitter about life and women. I hated a major part of every day. My job was killing me, and what a relief when it was over. I felt that women weren't worth much of an investment since they seemed to only want two things from me then: sex or someone to talk to/at, without giving me much else. (And I have plenty of examples to support this, as I am sure many of you have about men.) Luckily Rose has been able to teach me otherwise.

Now, once again my weight is creeping upwards. I briefly broke 210 the other day. I was recently in an emotional downward spiral, but I think that I already bottomed out and am on the rise again. During the dark time, my weight crept up little by little. I hope that it goes back down again. The last time it happened was 2004, where I hit a low of 194. I felt pretty damn good, I must say.

So I wonder how much I should link my physical body to my spiritual well-being. Right now, my physical body has been giving me problems for a couple of months now, and the emoitional/spitiual self has only just started making a comeback. Maybe one depends on the other.

Is it true for you? If so, how so?